sometimes i falter

my plan, photo by alison, canon 350d

today's affirmation:
today i begin again

i wrote about my intention of not doing healing publicly in my earlier post, guess what? yup, got a message from big u (that's what i call the universe sometimes, among other names).

went to tien hou temple with big sis on tuesday, not that i did anything worth commending, just people watching, took some shots of the chinese new year decorations. and well, when a good load of people congregate to pray and have good thoughts and feelings in a place, seems to be a nice place to hang out... or so i thought.

there's this thingy in the temple where you shake and pick a long stick with numbers, and get a little piece of pink note... a message. well, mine read: "you are endowed with a golden heart, so hesitate not to spread your kind and benevolent services for the benefit of the community. in return, you will be rewarded with good fortune in time to come."

oohhh... ok. service? healing service?

so... i am mulling over the idea of the healing business again, and as a good friend wrote me yesterday, "you haven't tried anything to explore your hobby want to hide in the shell already....... aiyo!" how very true. sigh... sometimes you just need a friend to point it out for you.

*taking deep breath*
*woosshhhh*

it's ok to fall. it's ok to ask for help, and it's ok to begin again.