window

bird of paradise, canon 350d

i sometimes forget that not everyone can feel what i feel, not everyone really feel the energy bumps, surges and shifts so strongly as i sometimes do.

that's what being a sensitive is like, sometimes i forget, and think that everyone can feel it too.

what is it like being a sensitive? to energy, to people's energy, to the surrounding's energy? what is it that i feel? here's a peep into the window of my world, which is evolving all the time.

i can feel when energy shifts on this earth, i have been through many many energy bumps to know one by now. usually when shifts happens, there is a release and change taking place. that's the bigger scale. on smaller scale, i can read people's energy. some pleasant, some not. when some are unpleasant, like when one person is vibrating low in area of hatred, insincerity, i get irritated and yuckie. and when one is kind and friendly and loving, it fills me with joy and love too. some people get spooked when i am able to read their energy, nothing to be spooked about, it's really what you project out with your own vibrational being that i am able to pick up. and thank goodness that science is now explaining all about energies and more people are aware of it. it is out in the open now.

same goes with the environment that i am in. i cannot be in crowded places for too long, like the mall. but put me in the woods, the sea, the mountains, i am most happiest!

i used to be able to communicate with non physical beings, angels, devas, higher vibrating beings. not any more now as i understand that they are part of me.

i am able to read past lives (those who believe in past lives), but these cannot be verified and i usually don't go there either.

now i understand the dhamapada stories that i read earlier in life. it intrigued me how people back then (thousands of years ago) are able to do such things, like talking to angels and devas? seriously? hah! until i encountered them myself, past lives? wha? and what it means that you have a "knowing". that information is out there all around us all the time and all we need to do is tune in to the right frequency to get them.

so, what do i do with this ability? *shrug*
it really doesnt matter, i am learning to live in the now, being present and doing the best i can in this very moment. other extras that i have are just... extras.

people still come to me to learn about themselves, why they are not able to move forward, usually there are blockages in emotional energy, for example anger, sadness, doubt, worry ect. and most of the time in order to move forward is for one to learn to let go, let go and let go. as i have learned through the years of my own healing and transformation.

and yes, i am feeling so much better now, the sun is up, the sky is blue, birds chirping. and oh... time for spring cleaning!

good times :D